Howdy.
To begin I’d like to make a couple notes about where I stand in life right now. I’m still not sure what I’m called to regarding community… Truth be told I’m a little bit exhausted with the thought of it all. However, I do believe God has been revealing his plan to me regarding the work he is calling me to. Enough of that. Now here are some thoughts:
I have been thinking a lot about the time that we spend waiting for things in life. Often, I feel as though God reveals an end-goal to me, but I do not see the steps between where I am and where I need to be. Many times it even seems as though I could dive right into that call if it weren’t for the commitments I already have (school, a signed lease, etc.). Why would God give me a vision if I cannot act on it right away? To teach me patience? Do I really have to sit and wait around for the right time? This has been the cause of much anxiety for me in the past few months.
Then I thought to myself, ‘Self, there is a difference between patience and inaction.” This is not necessarily a lesson in patience, because just sitting around is not patience. God would make me wait to take a step unless there was another step before it which I haven’t taken yet. God has given me a vision that I am not yet equipped to accomplish. He is still working on me in the meantime. We should never just be waiting, but instead continuing ever forward to become the man or woman who will be ready for the great cause for which God is preparing us.
So what do I do until then? Well, I can continue to try to grow in virtue, but that’s something that I’ll never be done with as long as I live. What is the next step toward this specific goal? In the words of Derek Zoolander, “I guess I have a lot of things to ponder.”
At the end of this reflection, I suppose I have not really come to any conclusion of what you or I need to be doing… deal with it. J I pray that God will reveal to myself and to you the next step in each of our journeys as we discern and that we will not grow anxious about what the end goal is or how close or far away it may be. I pray that we may focus on where we are now and how it is transforming us for the better.
Peace b w u
Praise God for where He has you! Thank you so much for sharing Eric.
ReplyDeleteI am confident of this, that the one who began a good work in you will continue to complete it until the day of Christ Jesus - Philippians 1:6
Eric thank you so much for sharing this with us. It's really good to hear where you're at in your discernment of community and I really appreciate your encouragement for all of us to allow the now to transform us for the better in the future. You're a good man, Eric, and you're definitely still in my prayers!!
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